It’s my last day of the winter holidays. I’ll be going to university in the morning. As the days have passed since Wednesday, there is a growing fear that I’ve failed the exam. The amount of times I say to myself I didn’t do well is in the hundreds, they just don’t shut up. According to those who believe in the law of attraction, if I keep believing that I’ve failed, I will fail the exam, so I have to keep telling myself that I have passed, or just find something to occupy my mind. If I did fail, I should be able to redo it. If I passed, then my fears weren’t justified, but either way, my experience may improve and I’ll be able to take the exam again with less fear and anxiety. Regardless, my feeling was that I wasn’t satisfied with how I could’ve prepared myself for this exam. 50 multiple choice questions. It’s frustrating to think that I couldn’t remember everything from the lectures. Nor the full extent of the rules of how to do this exam, something I need to triple check with my tutors. What makes it bizarre was that last night, I woke up thinking about my Mother’s school Bible, and that I thought it was missing. It was at my parents’ house as I had suspected after half an hour of searching. I don’t understand why. I don’t plan to read it again. I’ve already read it from Genesis to Revelations. My only explanation is that it’s part of Mum’s history, but I really doubt she’d cry if it was lost forever.
I’m still trying to pursue a way to earn money online. Utilitywarehouse tells me their free LED light bulbs incentive will stop by March 31st. Magda, promises a way to approach people through social media networks with a link, we are told that signing people up has never been easier. I hope so. Switching providers has always been considered a massive hassle and I doubt Utilitywarehouse itself can convince people to join straight away. I spoke to another entrepreneur who lives in England, but was born Slovakia 🇸🇰. It was a nice conversation and she invited me to her Facebook group, I still think of my other Facebook entrepreneur friends, Andy Walker, Jonathan Wilson, who are both British social marketers. Come to think of it, I can’t help but wonder if they’re still doing what they’re doing last I checked?
My mum thinks that I’m overloading my mental energy with this and I can’t argue with that. My mental energy has been focused on iPad screens with an average of more than 10 hours a day, mostly on online games on my phone and iPad. There will be a point I’ll need to let go of something, games can’t possibly earn me money right?
