My dilema about making money online, my univeristy and my life.

Recently Super Affiliate Accelerated has announced that they are dropping the price of their start-up system of running an affiliate marketing business to $50, compared to what was it again? $2,000? $1,500? It's a bit fuzzy on the former cost, but the bottom line is that they are offering whoever joins to get new their MOCA blueprint, MOCA is the abbreviation for Mindset, Offer, Conversion, Audience.

They offer blueprints, lectures, strategies and one to one mentorships to help set people up to create a 6 figure online business with products that can generate evergreen leads and constant flow of content and clients so that you're not wasting time asking every Tom, Dick and Sally on the internet. Instead they have systems that help you find people that will buy the products on a frequent basis. They claim no upselling, no hidden fees and they will offer a full refund if it doesn't work out. Something Exitus Elite didn't offer when I joined their system.

However, many people who do stuff online though seem to do Successful Solutions Method. Including a few I've spoken to via live video chat. What do you do? You do online jobs for at least an hour and you get paid to do it. You don't have to recruit or sell, although I suspect you earn a lot more if you do. The entry is $125, for the lowest level, which includes an admin fee, not sure what that means exactly but I assume there's a certain fee, with SSM monthly? annual? I don't know, but the highest is $2,000. It seems to be all over Facebook with those who join show earnings from $50 to $1,000. I just can't join their webinars due to them taking part at midnight, where I am. A lot online webinars seem to take part very late at night for that matter. To be fair, I think they do replays on YouTube.

Myonline Startup still holds onto their lifetime offer of being a partner for life, for how long, I don't know. Once that offer expires, it's a monthly cost to new partners. The cost to join is $197 altogether, but there's also a VAT surcharge, making it just over £200 on my side, that figures. To become a lifetime partner and one where I would get people to join Myonline Startup and if the people I recruit make a lot of money on clickbank and/or wealthy affiliate or what have you, I make a lot of money as well. Watching the days pass me by leaves me very anxious. I sometimes don't know whether I should try just one, buy them all or do nothing. Why? Each of them such interesting prospects and the reviews check out in terms of whether they're worth joining. For what it's worth, I hate the hesitation.

My mind keeps thinking of various factors, not the least of which are my parents. They want me to wait for a couple more weeks as I have tutors for my university course. There is a lot of things that are going to be used to help my university course but they are going to take up a lot of my time. Other factors are the products such as what products do you sell?, my mindset, my lack of clarity or clients and my autism. Yes, I said that I have autism. I have some mental challenges to myself, but don't we all have that in our lives?

More importantly, what is my niche? What do I like doing and can I turn that into some affiliate strategy? I love video games, and I remember seeing some gaming affiliate links, I've also seen players get thousands of likes and comments on their game streams, so it's possible for gaming to be my niche, but I'm no professional and I probably need years to master the games. That and I don't have the right recording equipment or technology.

I like to learn how to cook but I can only motivate myself to cook if I'm feeding someone else, like my parents. If I'm home alone, I'd rather pop a pie and chips in the oven. I love to watch chefs cook food and I do entertain the idea of trying the recipes and I do take pictures of food at every pub and restaurant I go to. My phone is clogged with pictures of food that I took over the years. I wonder if that's affiliate marketing of some kind?

I enjoy looking up stuff to help the environment as I'm a firm believer of Global Warming. I do a lot of litter picking but I doubt this would be part of an affiliate marketing strategy. The only thing I've been promoting in terms of environmental ideas is Ecosia, a search engine that plant trees with it's advertising revenue. I've been raising awareness of it for years, mostly face to face, but with the coronavirus, I have been raising awareness of it online.

I know that taking on too many products is a seriously bad idea, I speak of experience. I'm sure many entrepreneurs know what Shiny Object Syndrome is like. I'm told to stick to one platform and master it in say, six months.

I've currently got a few things that are free to join and can make a bit of money online but whether they offer financial freedom is simply juries out on them. What doesn't help is the fact that how do you recruit people to join them? Lots of entrepreneurs want to pitch their own ideas instead of giving my products a try, and they promise me good fortune on their pitches but they want me to pay for them. I don't think I'm ready for that.

The problem has not necessarily been the money, although there is a legitimate concern. Financially wise, I'm basically holding on with my benefits covering the cost of my flat, along with a weekend job and my parents are quite well off. My parents have long invested into some estate agency stuff and property business and their pension is invested into the stock market. When they go, I'm inheriting all the money earned out of it. My parents have actually ran a successful business, long before I was born before they decided to go back to the 9-5 jobs. I find it amusing that entrepreneurs comment of hating their 9-5 jobs and became entrepreneurs to escape that fate. My parents are likely to be the other way around.

Say I join at least one of these and I manage to make a lot of money without emotionally breaking down. My parents will say that my benefits will be lost and I may have to pay for the things myself that my benefits have covered and I'll have to go through the micromanagement of taxes and such. I've relied on my parents to handle the details, paperwork and phone calls as I find the whole thing a nightmare. I hate dealing with handling the programs and such. It was a time consuming aggravation to get my software sorted and making sure that there's no problems with the equipment I was given.

Does that mean I may have to let go of a few things? Almost certainly. I can't imagine myself being the same in say 5 years time. Regardless of my choices in the future.

Mac book buggered up but now it's working again

 My Macbook suffered a fatal error that prevented me from logging into my account. I was, naturally, upset as I feared that my content would all be lost.

The good news was that my electrician managed to get it repaired and it's all good again. That's a relief. Last weekend has been very busy. I've been litter picking and I managed to arrange a contract to get me paid to do so. Hurray! I did the first day. Let's hope it gets better on the way.

Tonight I watched Black Panther at University, with fish and chips. But I couldn't watch it until the end because things shut at 8:00pm. That's a bummer. On the plus side, I've made new friends.

The busy weekend of Football, Quiz Market and the Zoo

After another football game, I stayed behind to do the litter again. 6 bags. Nothing special, except I still had to do the office. and I managed to get it done before dinner. After dinner was the university STAART Quiz. I submitted over 10 questions in regards to recycling and they choose 5. I got them all right, off course but I only got 20 of the 40 quesions right altogether and I couldn't be heard, for some reason. I landed in 4th place, first prize would've been a £20 Amazon gift card. Oh well, at they loved my Dad's cat.

Sunday was a shaky start. I wanted to go to the market at Lenham, but before I did that I thought I needed some money from my ATM and it wasn't processing. My bank card surely hasn't expired yet. If it has, I haven't recieved my replacement card, yet. My dad gave me £25 and I bought some Strawberry and mint jam, some apple juice, some sour dough bread, a pizza and some honey lollypops. I felt I struggled with choice and I didn't feel like I had much time to spend there.

I should've brought some vegetables as the STAART group arranged a visit to the Fenn Bell Inn conservation project. It's a zoo, however you want to look at it. It is a zoo. I like to believe that Zoos can be a good conservation project but they also can be pretty horrible if maintained poorly.

Nonetheless it was a fun time and I managed to see some animals. I did some recording with my phone, then for lunch I had a roast turkey dinner wrap. It was nice. I think my photo wasn't a good one. Oh well. Lastly I made a video of myself tasting the Strawberry and mint jam, it's quite nice.

My desire to try affiliate marketing again, conflicts with my parents' concerns about University. That and I struggle to catch up. (WIP)

 This Monday wasn't a pleasent experience. I wanted to make a Cow Pie as it was called on a recipe that I got for free from someone decluttering thier home. I was supposed to leave the beef in a beer overnight and I did just that.

Unfortunately I was supposed to be in a lecture on Monday and the progress went south as I wasn't being supervised and I lost track of time. This resulted in me missing out on a lecture and I was really upset. It didn't help that I wanted to do this pie for a family friend who has been with us for years and I wanted to showcase my cooking for her. This didn't happen sadly, as she wasn't feeling well and decided to leave.

But the real honest low point was confessing my desire to join an affiliate marketing idea again. In this case, it's called My Online Startup. My parents and I have had this discussion countless times. It really is tiring that I want to try again but I kinda want to do it with the support of my parents and it's anything but. It was during dinner I meltdowned and screamed and cried, I will not explain the snapping point. It was unpleasent, to say the least. It makes me feel like I should've never joined Exitus Elite. 

I want to keep telling myself that it was because my mentor for that program just didn't give me the right stuff to use and didn't help me take advantage of what Exitus Elite could offer me, because there are a lot of people who do say that through Exitus Elite that they were successful. But my parents are firmly in the belief, rightly or wrongly, that it was a pyramid scheme, and they believe that all affiliate marketing schemes are pyramid schemes. I'm told that I'm too honest, that I would have a crisis of conscious if I try to persuade people to join say Exitus Elite, or My Online Startup or any other program for the record.

What is My Online Startup? Well it's a training program, created by Chuck Nguyen designed to teach you how to run a successful online business through affiliate marketing for whatever niche you want, and it tells you all the basics and what it is and what is isn't. I have looked deeply into affiliate marketing and I know that what it is that you advertise someone else's products or services and if people sign up or purchase the products, you get a commission. Chuck offers a partner program to recruit you into his membership where you get to meet the others and become an official member. If you sign people up to My Online Startup you get a commission.

To start My Online Startup you will need a Clickbank account, which is a real company that specialises in affiliate products. As I live in the UK, I can be a partner, no problem. To become a partner it costs $197, which is £163. Doesn't seem so expensive but it will also have a VAT cost to it raising it to over £200. Figures. The good news is that there should be no recurring cost and there is a refund policy for the program, so if I join and in 25 days, I make no money then I can get my money back. Not many courses offer this and I'm told over and over again that many courses are very expensive and my experience does confirm my concerns, although there are cheaper ones for various platforms, but I digress. Exitus Elite didn't offer a refund policy and it's Terms and Conditions made that clear.

My Online Startup has currently 8 modules to train you, ranging from your mindset to lead generating to Youtube marketing and so on. 50 lessons. It also has books to recommend to read and it offers 50+ income streams, according to Chuck Nyongen. How? If I join and become a lifetime partner, I can then share the course to various people online and if one signs up, I get a commission, that person decides to become a partner, I get a commission and any tools and/or software he purchases, I also get a commission. There maybe more ways, such as my own involvement with the programmes Chuck recommends such as Wealthy Affiliate and Clickbank but I can't go into detail, all I know is that Chuck claims there's a significant amount of money to be made once I become a member.

What's happening is that his lifetime opportunity, the $197 is going to end soon. It will be replaced with a $7 a week, to ultimately an annual cost which is around a couple hundred, as I recall watching his video. How long his $197 is going to be up for, I don't know. Either way the feeling I get is that if I join I would probably need to get at least three more people to become a partner to get a return on investment. This was never designed to be a get rich quick scheme, nor did I expect it to.

But my parents and my friends keep telling me that isn't my calling. If it isn't what is? What is my niche? What can I do to make money online? Am I ready to earn money online? If I do earn money online, what happens?

Football, rain, rain and my mind boggles

 Over the last few days it's been raining heavily and apparently it's not just here. France and Italy suffered significant rainfall costing the lives a few people.

https://news.sky.com/story/storm-alex-venice-braced-for-flooding-after-heavy-rain-and-winds-batter-southeast-france-12088604

I've been playing football as normal for Saturday, despite the weather conditions. Attendence was low, as I'm sure it would be when its raining. But what I did was go too far in my desire to clean up the area and now my football manager wants me to do litterpicking after the football. I guess I have to get there early and make sure I get a bit of a start, or maybe I'll get into more trouble for what it's worth. The rain made me do less litter picking either way. I filled up a couple of bags.

Mum's old car was actually still being used! I'm surprised, I thought it would've been scraped for parts or something, given it's history. Instead it's still being used. The owner didn't want me to take a picture of it. Oh well.

I feel like I should juggle what I want to do with more care. I need to write down a list of things I want to do before November and I haven't done it yet. I'm hoping to have another talk with my Mum tomorrow about what I feel like is necessary. Unfortunately, all I can do is just wait. I don't want to wait, I want to take action to my desires. A Youtube Channel, not necessarily a business. Still, I just feel like I need to work hard to get what I need. Especially, since Christmas is coming!

New month, end of the life of a bird

On the last day of September, after doing some stuff at my parents home, I found a bird, (A pidgeon, I believe) that was in bad shape.

Upon closer inspection, I saw this lump on the bird's head. I was told it was a bird tick and I don't think they are the contributing factor to a bird's declining health.

I knew he wasn't going to live, so I wrapped up the bird in a shirt and. Maybe I made his last few hours comfortable...

When I woke up in the morning, as I expected he was motionless and in the end I left his body out in the garden for nature to take him away.